Thursday, February 28, 2008
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Shout out to the crew! OMFG....
Willing2die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after all the dialgue about maximizing your potential and evolving as a player. How about following through on goals and walking the fucking talk. HELL YES!
I am so impressed!
Dannymac31..........
11k win of 50k on stars! omfg.
Comptonmasta PWNS 7.5k.
i am inspaired and impressed.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Shoutout to REX!
All I have to say is Oh my Fukin G-D. Ship the 37k & FTOPS Blue light Special.
Nuff said.
Monday, February 11, 2008
Perspective and Poker......
So last night I completely imploded in the $300 buy in FTOPS event.
5600 entrants and I go out 754th. What do you do when you throw at least 4oo dollars in the toilet and possibly 200k?
Go outside and kick the dog?
Drink yourself into oblivion?
Yell at your wife and slam at least 76 doors?
My heart was racing....Sadness bursting from my chest. I could feel my old red film of anger moving across my eyes. The ideas of which item to throw are on the forefront of my mind. And what do I see?
My 15th month old daughter is handed to me. She is directly from the bath. She is wrapped in a green towel, as the stem, with a hood shaped as the flower. She giggles, looks me directly in my eyes and snuggles her head into my neck. She doesn’t move for least two minutes.
The SADNESS. The ANGER. The self HATE. Slowly and sweetly drained away. I knew everything was going to be ok. Where is there a place for self hate and deprecation when an embodiment of love is cuddled in your arms for warmth and safety? I could never imagine wanting my daughter to see that darkness.
There is no great measure of yourself as a man or even more so as a person as your image in your children's eyes. More than anything else in my life I have pledged to be a great father. There is no failure. There is no quitting. It has to be a decision to provide unconditional love to your child from the day they are born to the day you die.
I know that my father did and does not know this. I spent a lot of my childhood expecting and wanting this love and got left wanting. I swore to his face I would grow up and be a better father than him. I pledge my life to this.
Poker is a game of perspective. Analyzing where you’re at any given table and not allowing your inner voices effect what you know is the real truth. Put yourself in the best position to win and DO NOT EVER; EVER give up ship when you have just started onto the path to success.
On Sunday I quit myself before the real game even had begun. This is not a decision I would make as a friend, husband, and father. If I am going to ever follow through with my lifelong poker goal of placing a WSOP bracelet around my wrist. This focus, passion and perspective are mandatory.
Taking a Popsicle stick into a gun fight. That's what I did.
By the way. I love my daughter Carolina Rose.
5600 entrants and I go out 754th. What do you do when you throw at least 4oo dollars in the toilet and possibly 200k?
Go outside and kick the dog?
Drink yourself into oblivion?
Yell at your wife and slam at least 76 doors?
My heart was racing....Sadness bursting from my chest. I could feel my old red film of anger moving across my eyes. The ideas of which item to throw are on the forefront of my mind. And what do I see?
My 15th month old daughter is handed to me. She is directly from the bath. She is wrapped in a green towel, as the stem, with a hood shaped as the flower. She giggles, looks me directly in my eyes and snuggles her head into my neck. She doesn’t move for least two minutes.
The SADNESS. The ANGER. The self HATE. Slowly and sweetly drained away. I knew everything was going to be ok. Where is there a place for self hate and deprecation when an embodiment of love is cuddled in your arms for warmth and safety? I could never imagine wanting my daughter to see that darkness.
There is no great measure of yourself as a man or even more so as a person as your image in your children's eyes. More than anything else in my life I have pledged to be a great father. There is no failure. There is no quitting. It has to be a decision to provide unconditional love to your child from the day they are born to the day you die.
I know that my father did and does not know this. I spent a lot of my childhood expecting and wanting this love and got left wanting. I swore to his face I would grow up and be a better father than him. I pledge my life to this.
Poker is a game of perspective. Analyzing where you’re at any given table and not allowing your inner voices effect what you know is the real truth. Put yourself in the best position to win and DO NOT EVER; EVER give up ship when you have just started onto the path to success.
On Sunday I quit myself before the real game even had begun. This is not a decision I would make as a friend, husband, and father. If I am going to ever follow through with my lifelong poker goal of placing a WSOP bracelet around my wrist. This focus, passion and perspective are mandatory.
Taking a Popsicle stick into a gun fight. That's what I did.
By the way. I love my daughter Carolina Rose.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
I suck Some more.............. 20k with 20 til bubble of ftops 9
Monday, February 4, 2008
Play for first (Following a read)....... thoughts?
Full Tilt Poker Game #5115941188: $16,500 KO Guarantee (38150935), Table 10 - 6000/12000 Ante 1500 - No Limit Hold'em - 4:49:14 ET - 2008/02/04
Seat 4: rubbarose (679,514) Good sized Chiplead. At this point in the tournament I felt like I wanted to play for first and work on getting HU with 5-1 adv. I had seen blur push very aggresive preflop but laydown marginal hands post.
Seat 7: blur5f6 (403,990)
Seat 8: jared03 (197,496)
rubbarose antes 1,500
blur5f6 antes 1,500
jared03 antes 1,500
rubbarose posts the small blind of 6,000
blur5f6 posts the big blind of 12,000
The button is in seat #8
*** HOLE CARDS *** [Ad 8h]
jared03 folds
rubbarose calls 6,000 - I really like to limp here with A rag.
blur5f6 has 15 seconds left to act
blur5f6 raises to 36,000
rubbarose calls 24,000 - His small reriase looked weak. I could have been a stronger play but hadnt seen that from blur all tourney.
*** FLOP *** [5d 9d 7s] - I liked the flop - gutshot/overcard/backdoor flush draw.
rubbarose checks - Planning a reraise entire time. (probably getting impatient. it was 2am with work in 4 hours.)
blur5f6 has 15 seconds left to act
blur5f6 bets 42,000
rubbarose raises to 642,014, and is all in - barely pause before I reriased all-in. Truly felt like he would lay down most hands here and I would have expanded my chiplead. A poor judgement and a large amount of wasted equity and chipstack.
blur5f6 has 15 seconds left to act
blur5f6 has requested TIME
blur5f6 calls 324,490, and is all in - A Ballsy call for all your chips (KUDOS). I probably would made the same with small flushdraw/gutterball.
rubbarose shows [Ad 8h]
blur5f6 shows [6d 2d]
Uncalled bet of 275,524 returned to rubbarose
*** TURN *** [5d 9d 7s] [3d]
*** RIVER *** [5d 9d 7s 3d] [4h]
rubbarose shows Ace Nine high
blur5f6 shows a flush, Nine high
blur5f6 wins the pot (809,480) with a flush, Nine high
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 809,480 Rake 0
Board: [5d 9d 7s 3d 4h]
Seat 4: rubbarose (small blind) showed [Ad 8h] and lost with Ace Nine high
Seat 7: blur5f6 (big blind) showed [6d 2d] and won (809,480) with a flush, Nine high
Seat 8: jared03 (button) folded before the Flop
that is a 2.5k hand.
Seat 4: rubbarose (679,514) Good sized Chiplead. At this point in the tournament I felt like I wanted to play for first and work on getting HU with 5-1 adv. I had seen blur push very aggresive preflop but laydown marginal hands post.
Seat 7: blur5f6 (403,990)
Seat 8: jared03 (197,496)
rubbarose antes 1,500
blur5f6 antes 1,500
jared03 antes 1,500
rubbarose posts the small blind of 6,000
blur5f6 posts the big blind of 12,000
The button is in seat #8
*** HOLE CARDS *** [Ad 8h]
jared03 folds
rubbarose calls 6,000 - I really like to limp here with A rag.
blur5f6 has 15 seconds left to act
blur5f6 raises to 36,000
rubbarose calls 24,000 - His small reriase looked weak. I could have been a stronger play but hadnt seen that from blur all tourney.
*** FLOP *** [5d 9d 7s] - I liked the flop - gutshot/overcard/backdoor flush draw.
rubbarose checks - Planning a reraise entire time. (probably getting impatient. it was 2am with work in 4 hours.)
blur5f6 has 15 seconds left to act
blur5f6 bets 42,000
rubbarose raises to 642,014, and is all in - barely pause before I reriased all-in. Truly felt like he would lay down most hands here and I would have expanded my chiplead. A poor judgement and a large amount of wasted equity and chipstack.
blur5f6 has 15 seconds left to act
blur5f6 has requested TIME
blur5f6 calls 324,490, and is all in - A Ballsy call for all your chips (KUDOS). I probably would made the same with small flushdraw/gutterball.
rubbarose shows [Ad 8h]
blur5f6 shows [6d 2d]
Uncalled bet of 275,524 returned to rubbarose
*** TURN *** [5d 9d 7s] [3d]
*** RIVER *** [5d 9d 7s 3d] [4h]
rubbarose shows Ace Nine high
blur5f6 shows a flush, Nine high
blur5f6 wins the pot (809,480) with a flush, Nine high
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 809,480 Rake 0
Board: [5d 9d 7s 3d 4h]
Seat 4: rubbarose (small blind) showed [Ad 8h] and lost with Ace Nine high
Seat 7: blur5f6 (big blind) showed [6d 2d] and won (809,480) with a flush, Nine high
Seat 8: jared03 (button) folded before the Flop
that is a 2.5k hand.
Played for First and Finished 3rd......
Details to follow.............
2 am after being up for almost 24 hours afraid to drink/diet coke/energy drink coffe duee to work in 4 hours.
need the hand history to illustrate following a read and trying to end a final table with thre eepople left with one play.
HH to come.
would i play it differently...................................................maybe.
regret....................................................................................NO.
chug-a-chuga-choo-choo.
2 am after being up for almost 24 hours afraid to drink/diet coke/energy drink coffe duee to work in 4 hours.
need the hand history to illustrate following a read and trying to end a final table with thre eepople left with one play.
HH to come.
would i play it differently...................................................maybe.
regret....................................................................................NO.
chug-a-chuga-choo-choo.
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